Admit it, as someone with T1D you like to, no, have to control what happens to you with regard to being poked and prodded. We are subjected to so many tests, shots and site changes that are uncomfortable at the best of times, of course we want to be in control of these. We want to be able to control how quickly the needle is put in, or where. the depth of the finger prick and how hard our finger is squeezed. There are so many different aspects of T1D that cannot be controlled, so we really latch onto what we can control and tend to fight off any that threaten this.
For me, I haven’t let anyone test my blood sugar in over 10 years! It’s my thing, it’s personal, it involves getting into my space and and making me bleed for crying out loud! It hurts quite a bit of the time (I have such skinny and bony fingers!) and overall I just haven’t trusted anyone else to do it and do it well (not to mention wanting to be the first to see the resulting number so that I can decide if I am actually going to reveal the real number).
In the past couple of days it has come to my attention that maybe this isn’t as good for me as I was thinking. My Mum, Dad, Boyfriend, siblings and friends watch me test but I do it so quickly that to them it’s really just a 10 second blur, they couldn’t replicate it themselves without direction. Does that matter though? I mean how often am I in a situation in which I am unable to test my bloods? And that was were I stumbled in my thinking. Day to day I’m generally not in that situation but in the past week I have been verging on it quite a few times, leaving my boyfriend sitting there doing his best to make me eat and get my sugars up (which he is amazing at) while not knowing if what he is doing is having any effect because I’m refusing to test my bloods again. Take it one step further to him finding me on the floor or unable to wake me in the morning (God forbid either of these scenarios actually ever eventuate, although they have in the past) and he NEEDS to know WHY I am not responsive so that he can take the appropriate action to help me. I think he had been musing on this too because this morning he asked if I could teach him how to do a blood sugar test.
This morning I said yes, lets do it. I sat him down and instructed him to test his own blood sugar (he got a perfect 5.4) and then he went on, unassisted to check mine. I took photos to try and distance myself from the whole thing (I was rather worked up) but he did a perfect job! It didn’t even hurt (I wont tell you my number, lets just assume I wasn’t high but it was above his).
Now someone that I spend a great deal of time with (when we are in the same city) is capable of not only treating my blood glucose when it’s low but testing to see if that treatment is required. It has put his and my mind at ease that now,if required he has the knowledge and capability to do this.
I still think that a blood sugar check is very personal (to me at least) and is something which I intend to keep control of but when appropriate and for the right reasons I am now okay with the idea of handing that control over to someone else (doesn’t mean I wont make attempts to snatch the meter before the number appears though).
As always these thoughts and opinions are mine and mine alone, you may find yours to be different and that’s absolutely fine 🙂 Please feel free to share your thoughts on blood sugar tests. Do you always do them? Do you let anyone else? Does a member of your family know how to? Let me know in the comments below or over in Instagram @hopie_duncs or twitter @hopieduncs
Have a great day guys.